A Really Good Name

I have not abandoned my blog!  I have not stopped exercising!  Ok, so some days here and there, I’m fucking exhausted and the last thing I want to do when I get home from work and picking up the kid is to exercise.  Nor do I want to shorten my sleep length by waking up at the butt crack of dawn to exercise.

That being said, I really have not stopped.  I’m loving my new heart monitor.  I understand its purpose now.  If I’m in my target heart rate and am moving around, I will burn calories.  If I’m at the peak of my target heart rate or slightly higher and move my tush I burn even more calories!  The other day I burned something like 530 calories in a 55 minute workout where the time before I did this workout, I had only burned like 485.  Why?  because my heart rate was much higher and I pushed myself much more.  So what’s the problem?  I haven’t lost any weight.  Nothing.  Nada.  Zero.  I don’t care how my clothes feel or if my friends say that my waist looks slimmer.  Bullshit.  I want to see it on the scale.  I want to see it on the scale or what’s the point?  I know I’m stronger.  My last fit test showed me that in spades.  Some exercises I double in from the first time.  My push-ups especially!  But not 1 fucking pound.

I’m not going to give up though.  I’m not stopping until I can look at a picture taken of me and proudly tag myself on facebook.  That moment won’t come anytime soon but it has to come eventually.